They're Here!

I wish that there was a way that I could sing "Theyyyyy're Heeerrrrreeeeee!"  I really do have a nice voice, so you'll just have to trust me :-)


It's been a little while since I last posted and in case you are wondering how I'm feeling, I must confess that the pain was so bad for the last 6 days, that on day 7 I returned to my previous dose of a particular med that I was supposed to decrease.  I just couldn't take it anymore.  I go back to Dr. P next week and will ask for her advice on how to proceed - I just couldn't function with so little pain relief.  So now I feel much more in a "manageable" place. That doesn't mean that the pain is gone, but it's no longer at the point that I want to crawl out of my own skin.  Now it "just" hurts, if that makes sense.


I also called Dr. F this week and requested a second opinion at another fertility clinic.  I just felt really pressured by Dr. F to go to IVF via IUI.  The other thing is that I started talking with a few close friends who are also struggling with infertility and are at the same clinic, it became apparent that out of the three couples (ourselves included), all three were recommended for IUI then IVF within a month's time.  This is a little odd as the other two couples are younger, and one couple is in their late 20's; we all have different diagnoses, yet it seems a little "odd" that we were all pressured to go down this road.  I would hate to say that this was a money grab, but it just makes me wonder a little bit and so I'd like to get another opinion on this.


If you recall, in one of my previous posts I mentioned that we had decided to just do our thing and hope that we can get pregnant on our own.  Freddie is convinced that since we ordered pregnancy strips, the saliva microscope and the ClearBlue Fertility monitor, that since we shelled out all this cash, we're bound to get pregnant and not use it!  I hate to agree with him, but I'm also thinking that this month might be our lucky month :-)  See, I do have a happy post once in a while!  We're hoping that by the time we go to the new fertility clinic, we'll have an announcement of our own, like last time with our angel.


I finally got word from my boss that it's likely that my job has to be kept for me for 2 years.  It's a little unclear as to whether it's 2 years from when I got sick or from when I went on leave, but either way, I feel a little bit better about this.


My pregnant friend hasn't replied to my email, so I'm hoping that it's simply because she hasn't had time - I hope she's not avoiding me.

from:  www.fertile-focus.com/saliva-ovulation-predictor.html

Now, the "they're here" part:  my saliva microscope arrived a few days ago.  I've been using it for 3 days, and so far I have no trouble reading it.  I read that some people just saw a bright light, but I think they weren't focussing the ocular lens.  I saw the "not fertile" field view and now I'm starting to see some transitional views, as of this morning.  That seems to be on track as today is day 12, and I hope to ovulate between day 13-17, which would make this a "normal" cycle, unlike last month!


Yesterday, I was bummed out to see no mail in the mailbox.  I had been hoping that the fertility monitor would arrive, but nothing.  When I got to the front door, guess what I saw?  There was a brown box that a courier had dropped off, the postmark read "UK" and I knew that IT was here!!  I was very excited to get the monitor and test strips. I ripped the box open,

from: www.clearblueeasy.com/clearblue-easy-fertility-monitor.php

found batteries and put them in, and started reading.  I was so excited to start using it this month, as I've mentioned that I think this month just feels lucky!  Maybe the luck comes from our angel's due date next week, but I guess I also feel like our angel is looking out for us.  Anyway, my excitement waned when I read that you have to use it within the first 5 days of your cycle. Bummers!  I'm too far along to use it this cycle.  I guess the programmable part of it has to start on the right day, as the monitor prompts you to test on specific days.  Oh well, what can I do?  At least I still have the microscope option and I think 2 or possibly 3 OPK's.  We'll make do this month. Wouldn't it be great if I didn't have to use this product at all?