3 days till test

Hello, long time no read...


I just haven't felt very inspired to write as not much is going on.  I haven't even journalled in almost a month, but I thought I'd do a little update today, finally.


So, we are finishing off our third Clomid cycle.  In fact, I get to test on Monday and I'm hoping for some good news finally!!!  As you might recall, I'm being monitored at our clinic via daily bloodwork and ultrasounds every two days. This cycle seemed to go pretty well.  A week before we started this cycle, my pain meds were switched to ones that were 'fertility friendly' and were supposed to cause less problems with fertility, which is great.  The not so good news is that they don't offer the same level of pain relief as before, so I'm in more pain, but as long as I take it easy, don't overdo things and take lots of rest, it's manageable...and honestly, I figure this is a small price to pay in the grand scheme of things if this could help us get pregnant.


Anyway, on day 10, I went in for an ultrasound and my lining was found to be 5.1mm, which is a little low as they like to see thickness of at least 6mm.  Last time it was my left ovary releasing eggs, so this time my right ovary had 3 visible follicles which measured 19, 17 and 16mm.  The reason I went in on day 10 was because last month I ovulated on day 12.  Due to the thinner lining in light of follicles that were almost ready prompted them to give me Estrace, an estrogen suppository which helps thicken the lining.  


So day 11 and 12 I did bloodwork.  Day 13, we did bloodwork and an ultrasound, which showed that my lining was now at 8mm, which is perfectly adequate, so I could stop the Estrace.  My right ovary showed 4 follicles, ranging in size as follows: 25, 20, 17 and 15mm.


Day 14 we did bloodwork again - I was alternating arms as my arms were sore and starting to get a little bruised and tender.  You know how they seem to take blood in the exact same spot as last time, so I had bruise on top of another bruise.  Day 15, we did bloodwork and an ultrasound that showed my right follicles were now at 28, 23, 18 and the last one might have been a 16, but they don't really worry about anything less than 18.  So I was really worried that I might not surge on my own and that my three great follicles might be reabsorbed back, so I took the Ovidrel syringe home, in case I had to take it.  Luckily, the call came later that day that my bloodwork had shown that I had surged overnight, so I was about to ovulate on either sunday or monday.  We timed everything correctly this time, with starting several days before the big O and a few days after.  Since then, I've been taking my progesterone suppositories and my prenatals as usual.


Our little kitty went missing a few days ago, so I've been busy worrying about her and putting up LOST posters.  We've also had a few other things going on, such as Freddie looking for a new car, good weather, some great yard work, which all means that I've had less time to obsess over whether I might or might not be pregnant.  I've had a few instances of smelling weird stuff which Freddie didn't notice.  I've been nauseous once, but that must have been due to the change in meds, as that wouldn't show up so early in a pregnancy.  I've got super weird dreams, but that could be the Estrace and/or Progesterone induced.  And lastly, my other cat has started using my belly as a bouncing off point to jump onto the couch back.  The reason this is strange is that she hasn't done this all year - the last time she jumped on my belly was when I was pregnant with our sweet angel, so maybe she knows something that I don't?


I haven't tested once yet, even though I probably could test on Sunday, so I've held off, for now :-)  I keep hoping that perhaps this IS it!  It would be fantastic, especially as the 1-year anniversary of the death of our child is coming up on Aug 15th, and I never thought that it would take this long for us to get back to that point.  Freddie keeps being optimistic, and I confess that I am too, as this cycle it at least seemed that everything lined up correctly - so please send some prayers to our good Lord for us...and that our kitty comes home :-(


We hope to take a week long vacation, the first one in two years, and we hope to drive to Washington and tour around.  I'll be honest that I worry how I'll be able to handle the trip, but I have to try.  Of course I've already thought about the ramifications of this trip if I were to be pregnant and I'm not sure how I feel about travelling that far [its a 9 hour drive] so early in the pregnancy...but so far, all this worry is simply a 'what if' situation right now.


3 days till I test...the countdown begins!